Thursday, November 17, 2005

downs... n downs...

feeling very nostalgic... thoughts oozing to my mind... da gud old college fun tymes..the ups and downs... the fytes da re-unions....da laffz...da I-DNt-CARE attitude...everything just fades so quickly that u sometimes wonder if that really happened... i dnt know since so many days i wanna write..write wotever i feel wotever is inside...but cant just bring it out..and it frustrates me to death..thoughts coming in and going out but nothing stays in mind when i start composing..life is a complete misery...u feel u r riding on a roller coaster completely out of control...seems like therez a spider's web all over...untouched and un noticed for a long time...just like a haunted house..hazy thoughts...life is a stand still and its not one factor that make u feel stagnant...its more than wot you see on surface level..thats why i say hear my soul but then again who has time for all this...i think i need a day break after dark..if for nobody else..have to reincarnate for my own sacred existence..makes sense..doesnt make sense..shudnt matter now.. i need to meet the REAL me desperately ...i need to throw away all these veils all over me..which i dnt even realize are there...but then thats the only reason why i dnt feel pure... dnt feel real.. one more thing...stop expecting ppl to be all good to u..u r nooo fairy tale princess ..so no fairy tale is gonna come your way..so be realistic be realistic adhere to wot u have and make your way...goood girl:) haffun with life and keep exploring urself...its the only way u can find contentment... and dont feel ALONE... coz u r not... u have a great ALLAH and if He's all u have..thats enuff...and feel blessed...oh yes i am!!..never went into wrong hands... conscience satisfied... wot else u want girly:)...be good be happy and wait for the much much happier times...your times...